It took me a bit of time to accept the way things turned, sour and hopeful, jumping till the sky and then falling hard. I find it annoying when people say “some awful things have happened, but I cannot get into details”. Sometimes we would rather have people just not say a word if they cannot get into details. And that is precisely what I do and did.
Life has come to show me in the past weeks that everything happens for a reason, the bad and the good. Even if whatever that has been happening is more on the bad side. But again, no further much on that, before one tells me “you are exaggerating, things aren’t that bad, you have two arms, two legs and a clear mind”. I’ll pass.
Either way, if my heart and intuition are of any consolation, I for once know that this major change bound to happen against my will shall not kill me. It might define me but I will be just fine.
And as life goes and I question my relationship (on and off, as in real life, with real people) with God, he has shown me he operates in the strangest ways.
If I would only have to give a general and random piece of advice to the world, is that you ought to treat every living person right. Sometimes, people get in your life in the middle of traffic jam, you might insult them and then, you get to your office, have a big project to move on to, and the person you had just insulted turns up to be your future project manager. Then you are screwed.
For this and so many other reasons, you just have to treat people right. If you can't be a sweet cake at all times (I know I try but I can’t), do your best.
I am glad I did not do wrong with this one. I am glad I did not do wrong with you.
Rarely have I craved so much for something or someone and show rejection towards “it” or “him”. I always told myself if I had to be keen on someone, I would be from the first moment I would lay eyes on him. It did not really happen that way but it built itself up as the calmest turmoil of my life, as a drug I would need every day, in the weirdest manner and never was it so well corresponded. We have a sort of inner schedule that became vital, that we secretly follow and gives us confidence and peace, even if the environment is not the best for us. At the moment.
I always thought I knew in what shape and size it would come but never thought I would be blessed this way.
I always thought I knew in what shape and size it would come but never thought I would be blessed this way.
Life can end tomorrow. Mine will change in three weeks. My clock is ticking faster than ever. To sort it out with your clock. But this new clock of ours might just run the world.
Alone we are great.
Together, we ought to be fantastic.
